mitch

attention! attention!
may i have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room,
if only, if only for one second
will you hear what i have to say?
oh, did i mention when i see you it stings like hell?
to the fact that we could have something that'll never happen.
will you hear what i have to?

Current Mood: bouncy

sooooooooooooooo torn!!!!!!

confront????

happy????

content???

avoid????

fight???

backoff????

argh!!!!!

Current Mood: blah

great day!!!!! could it get any better??!!!!

it actually started off fine until..... shiiiiiiiiiiit!!!!!!!!! nakakaburat ka, di ko alam bakit!!!!

adding insult to injury, that freaking comment was foul.. sensitive topic!!!! pucha!!!

bahala na nga kayo!

Current Mood: aggravated

a life learned lesson: its not good to want something you cant have... youll end up disappointed and disheartened..

in other words: huwag mo nang pilitin ang ayaw na nga sa yo!!!

ouchies!!!

gotta learn to set it free... have to learn to set YOU free!

bye bye! *poof*

Current Mood: cold

weird how back in high school, everyone would be rejoicing when classes get suspended. but now, being in college, its funny how people have changed (at least from what i can see). instead of the usual "yahoo, no classes!!!" reaction, lots of people are more concerned about actually going to school and about the people who don't really have a roof over their heads. a sign of maturity? i dont know...

stop rain, stop!!!!!!!

chem is a bitch!!! its so GROSS!! im failing with flying colors! greeeeeeeeeeeat!

thanks friends for the words of encouragement, kahit puro bola!

weird ass mixed signals! argh!

as each day passes, it gets stronger and stronger, deeper and deeper. shyet!!

yo quiero un chico, pero chico no quiere yo. chico quiere una chicha, pero la chica no es yo!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: crazy

pucha, its back to square one for me.... damn you chem!!!!!!! damn school!! damn thinking!! damn trying, it's proven to be pretty useless!! damn damn damn!!! tired of looking like the fool..

phew! ok, still not relieved... i need an outlet! droga??? hahaha! joke!!

Current Mood: cranky

i just dont get why bad things have to happen to good people... i know each and every one of us must go through life's ups and downs, but it just sucks seeing it happen to people who dont really deserve it.
don't think i've ever been bombarded with these many problems... not only personal problems, but problems of my friends as well. from family problems, to first heart breaks, to trying so hard to fix a relationship, to trying to figure out if you're even in a so-called relationship.. its just weird how they all seem to be happening at the same time, and to so many people.

--> shit, i guess this is really how it's gonna be from now on... stupid me!!!!! soooooooo sooooo stupid!

Current Mood: okay

the problem is knowing that you do not know something you need to know..

another situation i can't seem to find the answers to...

Current Mood: blank

ok, that just made my decision a whole lot easier... forget about it!!! bwahahaha!

Current Mood: devious

ever get that feeling of being "abandoned"? not really the serious kind, like being abandoned by your family or whatever. its the feeling you get when people you used to depend on so much sort of leave you for certain reasons. things start to change, and you end up feeling alone, with no one to count on. whether aware of it or not, a certain distance has been created and things just aren't the same. who am i to demand a person's time or attention anyway? i guess in the end, the only person you really have to learn to depend on is yourself. there may be people by your side a lot of times, but i can't help to stop and think, its only a matter of time before this person is gone as well.

the question is, what do you do when the person who "abandoned" you comes back, for whatever reason? do you help him/her out or do you shut your doors completely because of what that person did to you?

Current Mood: bitchy

Lagi Mo Na Lang Akong Dinededma
Rocksteddy

Matagal ko ng gustong malaman mo
Matagal ko ng itinatago-tago 'to
Nahihiyang magsalita
At umuurong aking dila
Pwede bang bukas na
Ipagpaliban muna natin 'to

Dahil kumukuha lang ng tiyempo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo lang alam, ohwoh..

Matagal ko ng gustong sabihin 'to
Matagal ko ng gustong aminin sa'yo
Sandali, eto na
At sasabihin ko na
Ngayon na, mamaya
O baka pwedeng bukas na

Dahil kumukuha lang ng buwelo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam, ohwoh..

Ngunit kumukuha lang ng tiyempo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita pero hindi mo lang alam
Hindi mo alam kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sa akin
Kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sa'yo sasabihin
Kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw
Mahal kita pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi wala naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo, hindi ako nagsasalita, wala!
Pero hindi ako torpe
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sa'yo ng harapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan, hindi rin kita titignan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman
Lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw-araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan
Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman na
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong dun din naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa rin lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan, oo o hinde
Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na para wala nang problema
At para hindi na rin kayong lahat nabibitin pa

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit lagi mo na lang akong dinededma

--> this song is from a guy to a girl, but change the lyrics a bit and it is very appropriate!!!!! hahahah!

got this from "rosie dunne".. whats up with this?? haha

you deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you're doing, where you are, who you're with, and if youre OK. you need someone who can help you reach your dreams and who can protect you from your fears. you need someone who will treat you with respect, love every part of you, especially your flaws. you should be with someone who can make you happy, really happy, dancing on air happy..

and where are you supposed to find someone like that huh??? hahaha

Current Mood: groggy

know how it feels when you're expecting something but you don't want to expect because what you're expecting may not happen as expected?
im not usually like this!! i guess i can say that some things (regarding me) have changed...
"dont assume or presume, just go with the flow for only time can tell..." TIME ampupu!!!! ahahaha!

Current Mood: giddy

after having a talk with someone, i realized how sad it is to see how much man has changed and what he has become. i dont think things were this bad during the earlier days. i mean, what has happened that we have become more and more greedy and more and more attached to our material possessions. its just sad to see how people give so much importance to these things that they'd go through great lengths just to attain whatever it is they desire. some would kill, others would deceive and manipulate just to get what they want. its also hard to change a person's frame of mind even though what theyre doing is obviously wrong. once man believes what he's doing is right and for a good cause, there's no stopping him or changing his mind. if only we'd realize what it is we are doing and make a change. i guess its also important to know a good thing when you see it, because good things are definitely hard to come across nowadays. damn, that was touching!! thanks!

Current Mood: thankful

some of life's many contradictions:

sometimes it's crazy to be sane

you need to fall to fly

people suffer because you care

you have to unlearn to know the lesson

you have to give up because you are strong

you have to be wrong to make things right

we should cry to laugh again

we fall apart to be whole again

we get hurt to love again

on love...
love is worshiped yet judged

it is selfish yet sacrificed

love has been used and has used up

love is not bitter but its aftermath makes us

love is wise yet too emotional

love is philosophied yet cannot be explained

-- mind boggling stuff!!! as a teacher once said, "life is difficult!" what a way to motivate!! haha! life is difficult indeed,we just have to know how to cope with the difficulties we are faced with. i know for a fact it can be really hard, but things aren't always as bad as they seem. though it may not seem clear to you at first, everything has its reason... why am i talking like this??? ahahaha! basta, that's my point... haha!

Current Mood: contemplative

i think im going to start going insane!!!!! someone save me!!!!! wahahahhaa!!!!

Current Mood: uncomfortable

holy cow!! the past few days have been such a roller coaster ride!!! havent had much sleep studying for the finals... and gave up answering most of the questions on the tests out of laziness... i think knowing that the break is coming up sort of causes me to relax and not exert as much effort anymore. won't be surprised if i fail them, my fault after all...

there are good times and there are bad times. times when you tell yourself you're alright and times when you ask yourself, "who am i kidding??? im not fine!" maybe thats just me, but that's how i feel a lot of the times. i wanna be able to tell myself and feel that i am truly happy with the way things are going. no matter how many times you say it, its pretty useless if you dont feel it and if you know in your heart that you're not. just have to deal with things and adjust i guess. thats life, it has its ups and downs and sometimes you feel that everyone else is on top while you're stuck at the bottom, alone. what do you do when you're in this situation? beats me! if anybody knows, please let me know..

Current Mood: calm

ang kuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupaaaaaaallllll!!!!!!!!!!! >:|

Current Mood: aggravated

another quote a friend sent me... talk about timing man! haha!
"it is one of the greatest ironies of human existence that the more you love someone, the more you make yourself vulnerable to the pain of losing them. and the more people you love, the more you increase your chances of getting hurt. yes, love makes you strong, but at the same time it leaves you defenseless."
hmmm....??

hell week, here i come!!

Current Mood: curious